For the first time in a year I'm not connected to my pump during the day. We're weaning off the exclusive pumping, I'm down to a morning and night session, thinking I'll drop the night one soon. It feels freeing and emotional. I know everyone has their own story and different experience with breastfeeding. Mine was hard in the beginning. His latch was never great. My supply was just enough. But once we started ep, he became a different baby. More content, happy and full. It's such a hard thing to keep up with producing for over a year. And, I feel good saying that I'm pretty damn proud of myself for it.

And then last week, i had my very last pump sesh. After hours and days and weeks and months and full year connected to my pump, it was retired to the closet. Close to 7200 ounces later, we're done with babyhood.

Halloween came, we carved a pumpkin, and watched Liam explore the textures of the slimy inside. We all giggled in delight.

He happily wore his dino costume, looking cuter than ever.

We visited with both of my grandmothers - his great. They have so much love for him, it warms my heart. They have so much love for me.

I'm enjoying getting more time to pull out my macro lens and shoot some food. I'm enjoying getting back into shape.

I'm incredibly grateful for this life we live. With so much sadness and terror around the world, my heart is filled with so much Thankfulness for our little family, our safe home, our warm wood stove, our fresh food and extremly cozy beds. I don't take it for granted. Our sheltered life.

I'm so grateful for my hubby, who continues to flow steady with my fluctuating hormones. That darn thyroid is working on balancing out again after finishing breastfeeding. It's hard on our marriage when it's out of whack. We're getting there though. I've been feeling happy again this last week, and it shows in our easier stride.

This song has been my background music lately:

now and then someone special comes along now and then someone brings your life a sonf now it's love im hearing in the morning breeze you're everything i wanted love to be

and i'll love you til the closing of our days and i'll need you through the valleys and the shadows and the highways and we'll put our feet upon the path of life and its' byways

and in the morning when i wake up by your side in the evenings as we stand against the tides every hour that you're with me, i can see you're everything i wanted love to be